Surrender

I never meant to surrender myself to you,
To let you in,
Mesmerising voice , captivated me
Lulling me into a whirlwind of events,
I came forth to you,
Tried to provide you with solace from life and this earth,
But you were never satisfied,
Never fulfilled by all I had to offer,
Always prowling , searching for more
But you never found it,
Yet I remained worthless in your eyes,
So I ran,
Ran from myself and from you
Ran to a place where those feelings of worthlessness could not find me,
I hid ,
Hid from all that I could not provide you and all that I failed to give,
Feeling that by running and hiding I would never have to face my feelings of my heart ,
that i would never have to face my feelings for you....