NUMBNESS

For so long I was anaesthetised,
Numb to feeling,
Then in instant gaze,
You swallowed up that emptiness,
Made me feel,
Awakened senses,
Touched my soul.

The need

and so she waits and waits with spirit thrown into the wind,
and heavy heart as she laments for him,
with thought and mind she dreams his lips into being,
he conjures passion in her by just the sight of him,
she shivers with yearning,
she shakes with need,
she longs for him
she longs for him

I have been magically awoken by the beautiful gift of friendship that life has presented me. It has shown me that regardless of the hardships that life throws your way, there are those few angels that pick you up when your wings have become to tired to fly ...
Thanking you for your friendship! It means more to me than you will ever know.

From Mirage to Mirage, never knowing what my search was for?
I have finally discovered peace,
a piece of tranquility where I can be..
From the desert storms of life..
nested in your friendship.

Theres nothing like good music to inspire the soul...There are very few artists who truly have the ability to touch you! When hearing Elvis Blue sing theres just something that he does that one can hear his soul through his music...he speaks to you and it touches ones soul. I read an article where he said that for so long he was trying to make it in the music world and it just felt that his big break was never going to happen. I thought of this.. And this is what materialised!


For so long you searched,
For a platform to be heard,
For people to hear your voice,
And to see the music in your soul,
For so long it felt as if it was falling on deaf ears,
Because they never truly heard you,
It was if you were miming,
Because they never saw the words,
They never saw your heart in it,
And they could not feel the melody…

Time had entered into a deal with destiny you see,
Because it wanted you for itself for a little while longer,
But then by catalyst of event it released you to the world,
Ready to share you,
And then by whirlwinds of happenings,
You melodically drew them in,
Casting spells of emotions ,
By words sung threw music,
You mesmerized ,
They noticed,
And finally your hour had drawn near,
It is your time now,
Thus you have ARRIVED.

Seven months today you sailed across the seas to a new world...I miss you and this is your invitation to my dreams

Come to me in a dream if you can,
Visit my thoughts and wash over it with your love,
Hug my heart so that I may feel content,
Knowing that you are happy and in peace,
Hold my hand with guidance,
and lead me in a life with cause and meaning..

Come to me in a dream if you can,
So that I can see you face,
Hear your voice,
Your presence is missed.

Come to me in a dream if you can ,
Find me,
In a place that is only ours,
In a place I have created especially for you and I,
So that no matter what,
You will always be with me,
And I with you..

I evoke you in all I do,
My life - a living enactment of your power, your presence , your blessings.

I have more than I deserve,
Yet YOU so willingly give me more,
So that I am able to give, to share..

So that those who do not have may know that YOU hear their call and cry,
And that through me, YOU make it possible..
For them to feel YOUR presence through kidness and care.

Because I am YOUR creation,
Your living work,
My life- a living enactment of YOUR power, YOUR presence, YOUR blessings.
Living so that YOU may generate through my doing and word.
So that my existence may always honour YOU.

Thoughts in Ramadaan

Clarity of Mind,
Of Heart,
Your Presence is no longer masked,
I see you,
In all things-big and small,
I sense you in spirit,
Embracing me,
Your will,
Your words,
Have awoken in me,
To know you,
To sense you,
That is the blessing that this journey brings.

Everyday I try to live...to let go
Today it feels as if something within me is dying
Each day I search,
Search for something,anything..
To fill this emptiness
I look through crowds..
Scan People
But SHE is never there
I never find her
this Pain
this Sadness
IT HAUNTS ME
Knows me by name...it wont leave
Will this wounds of losing ever heal?

In honour of my mother

You came to rescue me,
From life fated to years of nothingness.
You came to rescue me from life filled with numbness and despair.
You rescued me from worlds of abandonment and no belonging.
You rescued me.
You gave me love beyond meaning.
Beyond word.
Belonging to your circle,
To your love.
You mothered me,
Nuturing wounded soul into a being capable of living.
Your love, it rescued me....
Made me whole.
Filled spaces of emptiness to flickerings of hope...
You rescued me.

void in my heart

How can I express the deep void in my heart?
explain to someone that my mother, my best friend is beyond my sight?
In my sadness, I am reminded of your spirit, determination and courage.
Where do I go from here without your light, your fountain of wisdom?
You’ve been separated from us so soon and my bitterness is palatable.
Wishing there was a way my love could have saved you ,
Yet, the Almighty wanted to grant you peace and called you to His resting place.
It is not goodbye, never was
I’ll wait until the day I can see you again and say thank you; I love you.
The moments we shared can never be replaced nor erased.
They will be fondly remembered.
You had great strength and wisdom; I always knew I could draw from your strength. It gave me courage to take risks, experience life and weather through life's storms.
Although you are sorely missed.. Please be free to enjoy all the wonders laid before you....
May I find a way to shine as radiantly as you.

NATURE (continued)

My heart is in the blowing of the quiet serene breeze
My life is in the moon and stars, they changing constantly
The sun dictates my energies, the light that shines through me
And I am one with earth and sky
And it is one with me

A child of earth and sky I am
Its everything in me

Surrender

I never meant to surrender myself to you,
To let you in,
Mesmerising voice , captivated me
Lulling me into a whirlwind of events,
I came forth to you,
Tried to provide you with solace from life and this earth,
But you were never satisfied,
Never fulfilled by all I had to offer,
Always prowling , searching for more
But you never found it,
Yet I remained worthless in your eyes,
So I ran,
Ran from myself and from you
Ran to a place where those feelings of worthlessness could not find me,
I hid ,
Hid from all that I could not provide you and all that I failed to give,
Feeling that by running and hiding I would never have to face my feelings of my heart ,
that i would never have to face my feelings for you....

NATURE

Gushing of the water beneath my feet,
As I go on journey to Mother Nature meet,
I feel the spirits linger on the sky its open sheet,
Calling me to yonder, I finally find my beat.
Children of this earth ground beneath me,
Why is it we never see the beauty of the wind?

EASY

Dedicated to those who have loved, been hurt and lost
Written for a dear friend who experienced the pains of love

I never assumed that I would hear those fatal words brush off your lips,
My suggestions were merely ways of me protecting myself,
You took full advantage
Projected your thoughts and intertwined them with mine
Making it seem as if it was my idea
When you secretly advocated it

You were too scared to hurt me
So you allowed me to hurt myself
You told me that you support my wishes and that you agree
But for you it only meant an easy way out of any further complications
Any obligations

Your freedom from me meant more than your love
That hurt
Hurt to know that I was another thorn in your side
You spur yourself under the guise of friendship
And attempt to look like a martyr

You gave me up
Because it was easy

Dearest Daddy

The days of March brings back recollections..
Of how so suddenly you left this earthly realm
We tried to prolong your stay with us but it was not in our hands because your arrival had already been scheduled.

It was never easy...Letting you go.

You left... We stayed
Only memories remained

In each moment and every event your absence lingers

However I try to remain grateful
For the times shared and experienced

May your teachings of love and life be my guidance
And although time has passed you remain embedded in heart and mind

The Absent Teacher

Years of silence has alluded to spaces of nothingness,
Our sense of where our lifes different courses has plotted us,
and whom we now look back to in the mirror remains a mystery...
Our past lingers, forges ties within our memory
Embedds itself within our future,
Unknowingly...

Mostly I write to pay tribute to my absent teacher,
The book,
your words,
the one you left behind - my guide
The first feeling of euphoria: that those words that come from me evolves into poetry.

Catalysts of inspiration,
Graciously annoints me,
Through your words, I found mine.